I know I have been a really bad host lately. I keep inviting people to the party, but then I never show up. I’ve been less than active on this blog and not very active on social media either. So what has been going on?
Well, I’ve been a bit down about things. I have not felt very validated as an author and have been in one of those self induced moods where I hide from the world. But, I’ve come back out from my cave, and I didn’t see my shadow. So I think that means I am able to break down this barrier and start working on what I enjoy. And to start, I put out this blog post.
So what have I been up to?
Well, lets start with the biggest of things that kept me away. And that is DetCon1. Most of you know how excited I was about being part of the participants for this great convention. And it was really a good time. I got to meet some great people, break down my fear of reading in public, and even got a few great compliments.
One of the things that was so cool was I got to meet, and for just a little bit, talk with John Picacio. He is one of my all time favorite artists and we talked for brief moment before he was off to do more Guest of Honor stuff. But, he happened to know who I was. We’ve interacted a few times on Twitter, and I guess he seemed to remember me from there. I also attended some of his panels, including one where he broke down how he did “Girl with Microphone”, which is one of my favorite art pieces (bottom left of the picture below is my print copy which I won at the art show!).
I also spoke to Neil Clarke of Clarkesworld at some length after one of his panels (the day before we sat on a panel together). Clarkesworld, and Neil, have been a great inspiration to my work on Plasma Frequency. And Neil was very much aware of my publication and I was so pleased to know that. He also shared some great insight with me into his own experience in the business and I was quite surprised by things I learned from him. Needless to say, it made me feel as if Plasma Frequency was doing some good in the Science Fiction short market world and I can’t wait to push forward.
I also had a panelist on my first panel tell me that I had a “Stephen King vibe” to me. I took that to be a compliment and he seemed genuinely surprised that I had not hear this before. Perhaps that means that I am good on these panels and can be invited back for more. I don’t believe I have signed up for WorldCon in Spokane, so I better do that now.
I had a big fear of reading in public. I am not the best out-loud reader and I notice if more and more as I get older. I stubble over words when I read out-loud to the kids. So I was really worried. I did have a reading, but it was late and not many people showed up. I went last, and many people walked out during my reading. I don’t know if that was from boredom or from it being close to the end of the panel. I hope it was the later.
Oh, this magazine of mine. It is always on the list of things that keep me from writing, but that is a good thing. We are starting year 3 with the publication of Issue 13 on September 5th. We are making some changes to the publication this year. And just like last year we are letting our readers choose half the stories we publish in the Year 2 Anthology. You can vote on those here: LINK.
We really need the support of our readers if we hope to continue. So we are also asking for your ideas and thoughts in our survey that is just before the story voting. We are also asking you to pick the cover artist for the anthology. So if you have read Plasma Frequency at all, please go complete the survey.
A Day Job
So I got one of those again. Which is good because I was out of a good paying job for sometime. But I have one that pays pretty good now. I am still in physical security. The job is boring, has lots of down time, and the hours really suck. But, I did finally get a laptop this last week. So I can now make use of the down time. Can’t do much about the bad hours right now. It is just hard on family time, especially once the kids are back in school. But, I will make use of the downtime to get things done that need to get done.
A new cover for Volition Agent
So, I finally decided I needed to do something about the cover for Volition Agent. The original cover wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t enticing buyers either. So I had Rebecca Treadway at ATRTink redo the cover. What do you think? I think it is awesome while still using the model and photographer that worked so hard to get me the first cover. Also, you can now get Volition Agent on Kindle for just 99 cents. So go pick up a copy here: LINK
So I touched on this when I mentioned the new job. It has meant that when I am off work, I am spending time with the family. This is because I know that time won’t be around when all three kids are in school on my days off and I don’t see them. Especially since I work 18 of my 40 hours on Saturday and Sunday. So I have been spending the time with them exploring Washington state, our new home state.
My health hasn’t been so good as of late. I am thinking my gallbladder is acting up. I was in a lot of pain off and on while at DetCon1 and lost 10 pounds in the week I was gone. Which is odd, considering you don’t typically lose weight on a vacation. I can’t see a doctor until 2015, unless something changes and I can get insurance before then. That is a long story. But I have to have them run a whole series of tests on me, because I am also dealing with some other issues health wise. All in all I need to make sure I take care of myself.
Feelings of Failing
I touched on this at the start of this blog. I can’t help but feel as though I am failing at doing what I love. Writing is so much fun to me, but I am just not getting the attention of readers. I recently discovered that none of my books have even broke even. And that is a bit of a sad fact of being a self-published author. And when you feel like you are failing is can be difficult to motivate yourself to write. So while I have a whole list above of valid reasons that kept me from writing. This funk is the real reason. The rest are just excuses.
So what is coming next?
Well, finally adding a laptop to the equation should help me get back into the swing of things. I will be able to get more writing and Plasma Frequency business done when I am away from home. And that is a huge plus. It also means I will be able to finally start putting words down on the sequel to Dissolution of Peace, which is starting to be on pace to be a lot longer of a novel than the original is. I am still trying to think of a good series title for this series. Any ideas from my readers?
I am trying to keep my chin up. DetCon1 was a huge boost to that. I think once the kids are back in school, and before the Washington rain hits, I’ll take this laptop out to one of the great state parks here and use nature as my inspiration to start putting the letters on the page again. In the meantime, I think this blog post is a good re-connection with the writing world and I’m ready to get things rolling again.